Okay, you know what, this is getting serious, and seriously disturbing on top of that that. I choose to return here because of this short Showroom update that was streamed today. I wished to not touch the whole affair until things had finally gotten back to normal and I had a better grasp of the whole picture to make full sense out of this situation. It looked as if things had gone back to normal at several points during the last few weeks, with Maho even sending a tweet yesterday to reassure that her prolonged absence was just all a matter of "stress", stating that she had "lost 4kg over the last 2 weeks", but that "anyone would have suffered weight loss if they found themselves in this situation, so it's alright", as it can be read here: https://twitter.com/maho_yamaguchi/status/1082222985166020608 I sort of felt relived to hear Maho back, hoping things were settled. Well, seems it was not the case after all. Seeing Maho in this state makes me seriously wonder what the hell is going wrong inside of NGT, its management, or a certain portion of the NGT fanbase, whichever is the case. Please note that it seems like the stream got cut off externally by the staff of Showroom, not because it hit curfew time (which is usually midnight). Sorry for rushing this out without much formatting (I will edit it better at a more appropriate moment), but I think that it seems there is some serious stuff going on, more so than I had imagined at first, that needs to be investigated on a criminal level here. "I had tried to send a mobame mail before but I got stopped and couldn't send anything. I wanted to tell everything, but nothing will get solved until I say the truth. There's still other people who might go on to suffer the same experience, but I decided to just wait for a month. But they did nothing at all to deal with it in the end. Even Imamura-san, he would speak about «making it a clean NGT», «making it a new NGT», of how «people who do bad things would get fired» ...and yet they did nothing to deal with it. Everyone's personal informations, they got disclosed around too. That, once again, I... The fact that carrying oneself diligently would result in... I wouldn't be able to bear it, if any other girl working with seriousness will end up in a dreadful experience like this. I am glad that I got helped out of it, this time around ...but I couldn't avoid wondering what it would have happened if I had ended up getting killed instead. But if things had gone beyond the point of recovery, I just wouldn't have made it out in time. Why is it that things that aren't allowed in other groups are tolerated within NGT? I really can't understand it... It doesn't feel like I am being alive anymore. Normally... Even some time before, like for the Aikabu Senbatsu, it was happy to work along together with everyone. ...Every day felt enjoyable after getting into Team G. It really felt uplifting. Laughing all together, being all smiles on a normal basis, that alone made things enjoyable enough. That alone was enough to feel happy. Yet, in spite of that, how could things have come to this? I have no idea... Is there anything wrong about carrying oneself diligently? So is getting into love affairs the right choice, instead? I have no idea about that anymore, either... I don't understand what's the point of it all... Why it's people who carry themselves diligently who are forced to experience these situations? Is there anything wrong about carrying oneself diligently? For what reason should someone end up in a dreadful experience like this? I truly wanted to say everything about it, but they promised me they would solve things out for me, so during the course of this month I decided to bear it and wait, although the situation was disturbing. And despite all of that, as a result, they did nothing. The people who committed those wrongdoings, everything about that was left untouched as it was... I don't understand it anymore. What would have happened if someone had done something beyond the point of recovery instead? I want to tell everything, but it would cause trouble for the people who have offered me their assistance. But then again, even someone else besides me (stream is cut off here)" (click on the image to jump to the Dailymotion video) --- In the interest of providing as much information on this case as possible, I feel it should be added that the last mobame mail to be sent by Maho on December 23, before falling into silence, other than being mostly a schedule about the handshake event on the day after, also contained inside a single line that said "I was wrong to think of everyone as scary and having fallen into a sense of self-loathing, sorry", which is obviously in reference to any NGT fans reading it. This is all for now, for the sake of throwing clarification on this case and the identity of culprits, though if things go on any further I might as well consider translating word by word and releasing here the mobame mails that I mentioned about one month ago.